WEDNESDAY AUGUST 5th, 2009

Exactly one week from today....

Is my effin' 21st Birthday....

Thanks =]

This would be nice...

My 21st bday is in 2 weeks and 3 days. I know this exactly since my bestie bday is 2 weeks 2 days b4 mine and her's is tmw.
She is going out to Club Onyx in charlotte tmw since they have male dancers every 3rd sunday. I want to go but I don't won't to risk driving all the way to Charlotte and not be able to get in since I'm still 20.
There I go missing out again. Then I was thinking... What am I gonna do for my bday... Most of my close friends are not in Raleigh and I can't go home to charlotte bc of work. My bday is I'm the middle of the week! So wtf is there to do... I would b completely content if someone special wanted to take me out for my bday... For just a little intimate occasion but do I have someone special like that? No... I don't think so... At least not anymore. Sad.

Such is my life

Fw: Rev Run like from the BB in my bed =

Its storming so I'm about to get in bed and hope I drift to sleep. I'm working out now... And my quads are killing me. Surprisingly I gain some motivation. I was working out... Well suppose to with a guy... But it seems like he wants to do it on his own schedule... And not to what we both agreed on. I was doing good to even agree to do it together on a negotiable sch. But I am so not about to hop skip jump to when he's ready... I like him and I enjoy the time we spend together... But no, I can work out by myself and get the job done quicker w/o him lolligagin* around lol plus crazy dudes would love to assist me in the gym... Why is he kidding himself like I'm not the fuckin business lol
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Man...Guy Issues Continue

So i was driving one day and the Boyfriend #2 song came on. As long as its been out, i have never actually listened to the words. But this time I did.
Pleasure P is so effin' lying about being ok with being #2. But then I tried to come up with the scenarios in which being BF #2 may work lol
This is what I came up with...

Girl A and Boy B are together.... meaning Boy B is BF #1

Boy C is Girl A BF #2

@ the same time Girl A must be Boy C GF #2

lol... I dont cosign this shit either... i was just thinking.

Frustration...*curse words*

Why is it that I seem like I a pursued by a shit ton of guys... but no one wants me for like an exclusive relationship?
Even if right now i'm technically not single...or technically single... however you want to look at it...
the guy doesnt want to place a title on anything.

I told him i thought he was trying to have his cake an eat it to... or at least have th option to eat it to...

but he denied those allegations....bullshit! It whatever tho, I'm not going astray to be all by my lonesome...

Still waiting on Mr. Right....

I wasn't looking for Mr.Right until I received 80% of Mr. Right.... now I want it all...

hence my frustration